My hero’s have always been cowboys……………. A tribute to Bill Horn ….The Legend

My hero’s have always been cowboys……………. A tribute to Bill Horn ….The Legend

            I grew up a-dreamin’ of bein’ a cowboy

            And Lovin’ the cowboy ways.

            Pursuin’ the life of my high-ridin’ heroes

            I burned up my childhood days.

Bill Horn, a member of the National Reining Horse Association (NRHA) Hall of Fame, the NRHA first Million Dollar rider, past president of the NRHA and Futurity, Derby and Super Stakes Champion and my own personal childhood hero… The Legend BH

“Bill had this quality about him that you just cant describe…Women loved him and men wanted to be him”.

“He made everyone around him, better, he was everybody’s hero.”  

Since I got the call from a friend Saturday night that BH had passed I have had Willie Nelson songs stuck in my head… not just that one but, On The Road Again and Hello Walls.

“Like a band of gypsies we roll down the highway”

BH & Carry Out

In 1984, I was about 11 years old and I got to live a dream a in the back seat of a PIMPED out crew cab dually. My father and BH traveled the country hauling for the NRHA World Championships. My father was competing in the NRHA Novice (now the limited non-pro) and Bill for the Open. For a little back-story BH and my father were very close friends for quite some time and BH trained a large number of horses for my father from 1981 till about 1987, at which time dad focused more on Cutting horses. At one time dad had 13 Futurity prospects at Horn’s Together they had some great horses, Lady BH, Miss BH, Bright Enterprise, Great Barney Bars, Carry Out, who was the  Super Stakes Open Champion and Reserve Futurity Champion, Velvet Enterprise.

Now about the Willie Nelson songs…. I don’t really know if it was Bill or my father who was the fan of the Red Headed Stranger but I think they only ever had one cassette tape in the truck… It was Willie Nelsons “Greatest hits… and some that will be” If I have a soundtrack to my life… it will include several songs off this tape.

Horn had this great stud horse B H Enterprise whose foals dominated the Reining world for a long time and Bill had these coats made for the crew…Bill, in those days always had a crew, a entourage,  a following, I don’t really know what everyone did or why they were there … They were just always there…. People just wanted to be around him. Anyhow, Bill had these coats made those old satin coats that were so popular back then. They were embroidered with B H Enterprise’s name on the back and a horse in a sliding stop.  Dad told the story of the Horn crew going to a Willie concert and someone threw his B H Enterprise jacket on stage and Willie picked it up and wore it… that was “BIG”.

BILL-ISIMS

BIG, that takes me to another note … BILL-ISIMS ….BH kinda came up with his own vocabulary that we had to learn… Sometimes it wasn’t what he said so much, but the way he said it….

BIG was sort of like Wow, Awesome, & Cool all rolled into one.

A-MUCK or RUNIN A-MUCK  … I remember the first several times I heard it I thought is was a bad word that would get in trouble if I said it… A-MUCK, meant you were messing up, you weren’t tending to business… Often times his help or a customer or another trainer might be drinking a little too much might be spending to much time SHITFACED and they might get focused on women chasing and they would be RUNIN A-Muck. I think the word was used about my father quite often.

SHITFACED…Drunk …..Don’t know if that is exclusive to BH, but he sure said it a lot…..

HELLO WALLS… Now this was the name of a sad song that Willie sang about a guy who talks to things in his house because he’s lonely that his wife ran off and left him…. but to Bill it was all encompassing slang for anything really bad that could go wrong with showing your horse, but mostly running off pattern,

GUSTO ….. Well that one was simple; you were going for something “BIG”.

But BH Lingo to be more specific… You went for the GUSTO when you had half the horse of everyone else you were showing against, you were next to last to go and you know you’d be lucky to mark a 216 or 217 and you let it all hang out... throw caution to the wind and your going to either mark real high or something’s going to break… That was going for the GUSTO (if you were showing against him this was when BH was the most dangerous)  

PRECEDENT… Ok so this may be a little different but I wanted to tell this story from around the kitchen table at the Horn house in Cable, Oh … BH, Sam Smith and my father were discussing a situation where Sam said that my father needed to set a precedent… Not know what that word meant I ask BH…. I will never forget his definition …”Well a precedent is something you do to let every Son-of-a-bitch down the road know not to F%#! with you.”

Ok … I got off track.. I do that sometimes… Back to Willie

The song “On The Road Again” that was like the BH anthem… I think the guys loved this song because they were always traveling…. Usually on an all night drive to the next horse show. Now these trips took place almost 30 years ago and I don’t remember many specifics, hell I was just a kid… but I remember very vividly leaning up from the back seat to stick my head between the captains chairs for hours so I could listen to those guys visit… I never wanted to sit back and sleep because I didn’t want to miss something.

 

Lets see what else do I remember…. I remember Sharon Davis who was about 18 and she was about the prettiest thing I had ever seen …She was the first girl I ever had a crush on…. She was from North Carolina and showed this big stout gelding named Banker Bar Leo that Bill had trained who was just destroying everyone in the Youth and Ladies classes. Well Sharon was in the back seat with me and she fell asleep holding her trophy like a small child would hold a stuffed animal.  BH got the biggest kick out of that and told everyone he was going to start doing that.

BH had a affinity for guns… He had this special console in his truck that had a special place for a pistol…. Don’t now why he traveled with one but back then he always did Bill also for kicks one time bought a UZI… Yes a fully automatic UZI that shot 9mm rounds I remember he and I went to go shot it ….In his front yard of all places he was showing me how to use it by destroying this tree in his yard …. When he pulled the trigger and it started firing off multiple rounds, he just held the trigger down till he was out of Ammo … the look on his face was priceless, when it was done firing he looked at me and said “That was BIG”.

Bill and My father would tend to drink a little when they drove on those trips… Dad said it was just a “pull” from time-to-time to keep them awake on the trip… I think they may have had more then just a little “pull” from it a few times…. Like the time my father was looking at the gun and fired it off from inside the truck… while driving down the road, I know what your thinking…”he shot at something with the window rolled down” NO! He shot though the windshield … that’s right he fired the gun  from the passenger seat while BH was driving and shot though the windshield….. Crazy right?  Yeah I guess he could not believe it happened the first time so he fired the gun though the windshield a second time… Think they might have been Shitfaced?

Speaking of being SHITFACED … What ?  You don’t think I can do a story on BH with out talking about CROWN ROYAL did you?

Now I was a kid and I am sure they didn’t drink as much as I remember them drinking…. But…then again they may have.

To me during the summer one of my biggest thrills was going with my dad to check on the progress BH was making on the Futurity prospects, at Horns place Something BIG always happened…I could go fishing in Bills pond, or hunt birds in woods, sometimes they would let me ride a few of the good broke aged horses and I got to play with Bills dog Sugar.

One time at BH’s Farm in Cable, Dad sent me to the truck to get a new bottle; on the way to the house I took the cap of and threw it into some tall grass by the barn on the way to Bill’s house. Now, those guys would let me have a little sip from the bottle when it was first was opened… I know some folks might think this was horrible but it was just a thing that when they got a new bottle they would let me open it and take the first swig, you know it wasn’t any big deal.  When I got to the house I already had my swig and set the bottle on the table… When they ask me where the cap was I told them I threw it away…. When they ask why I did that, I told them “ Well whenever you guys open a bottle you finish it” so in my young mind they really would not need the cap.  For the next few hours I crawled on my hands and knees till I found the cap.

When I became old enough to drink, I would then and still if I chose to have a drink today order a shot from that purple bag.

Texas Reining Futurity Classic 1986, was held in Fort Worth, sometime late August,  I did not get to go to this show but it has a special memory to me. BH and crew used it as sort of a “Tune Up” before congress that year… Side note:  Dad and BH did not always or really ever agreed on what Bill’s best Futurity horse was. I don’t think that Bill ever went to the Futurity thinking my father’s horse was his big hitter or one that could win but more times than not Dads horse did the best of all the ones Bill had  ANYHOW… Dad had this gelding that was just OK at best ... but it was all they had that year... and they took him to this show…The horses name was Great Barney Bars, which is a little bit of a tongue twister.  

BH wen't for the GUSTO that day and Barney won the Futurity, the local television station was on location covering the show. The TV reporters came back the stalls to interview Bill who was celebrating with a few adult beverages… Well, as the story was told, all was going well until the TV reporter ask Bill what the horses name was… that’s when it came apart…

Bill blurted out “ Great Barney Balls, um, no that’s not it, Great big balls um, no that’s not right either.”

Then BH looks away from the TV camera and yelled to my father” Ben, what the hells is this horses name?”

Now at this show, BH won a trophy saddle and a beautiful custom Gist buckle. BH had lots of saddles and buckles so he gave them to me. They are both still considered to be some of my prize possessions.   

Those are some great memoires…  I think about trips with them guys and being around the shows with them and the others Rick Weaver, Dr. Tim Bartlett, Steve Culver, Sam Smith, Jim Gibson, Richie Greenburg, Kenny Eppers, John Snowblen, Bill’s brother Paul, Butch Shaver, Butch and Penny Gardel, Whitey, Frankie, Becky Collins, Bill Waterman, Bob Anthony, John Rossi don’t know if I got some of those guys name right and others it was just like a big CRAZY Family.

But memoires aside I’ve thought a lot the last few days was just what was it about BH that was so darn special… 

Now he was a humble and honest man…. He never needed to be boastful or brag on what he had done, or could do…. BH had a very impressive track record of wins … he just let his results do the talking…. He never seemed to be much of a salesman, when he told you something, that’s the way it was. I can remember him calling my dad and saying whatever horse he was riding at the time wasn’t going to cut it. He never milked him for a training bill, I’m sure that when one didn’t work out dad was disappointed but appreciated Bill allowing him to cut his losses…

They may have been better trainers, or guys with a sharper eye for selecting prospects, but I don’t think then, or now there has ever been or probably ever will be a better showman… When he had a good one under him it was pure poetry to watch him ride…. It really was a beautiful thing. If god has created a man more suited to sit on top of a horse, we haven’t seen him……

When Bill went for it, NO ONE was better, I can’t say it enough, it was beautiful to watch. His ride on Velvet Enterprises would bring a tear to your eye… those big stops on Trash would send chills up your spine. This was 25 years ago and I can still feel the emotions when I felt back then…..

I think... no I know, BH made everyone around him better… I think how many great trainers got their start in or around his camp Rick, Shawn, Mike, Sam, Pace and others and then I think about how well his Non-Pros and Novice got along… I can remember shows were BH’s crew and clients would win every bronze at the show…It was just a winning machine….

Everyone wanted to be part of it, be near it, to be like BH.

After Bill’s ride on Velvet at the futurity he tossed his hat in the stands …. The next year in the Bob Evans youth reining at the congress after I got done with my ride I tossed my hat into the stands to be just like BH…. Difference was Bill marked a 223 on Velvet and I over-spun. HELLO WALLS.

In my defense Bill had tuned on my horse for about 30 min before I showed him that day and had him in a little bigger gear that I was use to…. That blew my mind, how I had rode my horse (which btw was the same horse my dad had won the world on a few years earlier) for 90 days solid with no major incident or changes and Horn tunes on him for 30 Min and got his mind “rite” and it was like I was riding a rocket ship covered by hair and hide.

It meant a lot to me that Bill went out of his way to do that for me with out Dad or I asking… I never really knew if Bill liked kids or not, I think it just depended on the kid… I knew he was very good to me, he was nice to Molly, White’s daughter and Farley. I know I was older and Bill got in my ass about something I was doing wrong that I didn’t even know I was doing wrong… and I was just crushed… We all wanted his approval. We loved him.... and for us to do wrong was devastating.

I think back to the other great trainers of that time… Larry Rose and his Great Pine colts, Bob Loomis and his Top Sail Cody and Boss Nowata Stars offspring, Bob Mac and his Lad 50’s. The other trainers who were some of the guys Bill looked up to like Dale Wilkinson and Bob Anthony then his contemporaries like Rocky Dare, Terry Thompson, Dick Pieper, Doug Milholland, Guy Gauthier, and many others … those guys were the heart and soul of reining, they were great competitors in the ring and friends outside. Then you take the next generation of trainers like Tim McQuay, Craig Johnson Scott McCutcheon, Shawn Flarida I would bet all of those guys would admit that when it came to BH they all knew they better step up the game cause the pressure was on…. That added to and help built the excitement that has grown Reining into what it is today

If there is Reining in the after life I guarantee it just got a whole lot tougher for Paul, Stevie and Guy.

It has been 10 years since I had seen BH and the time before that was about 8 years but he was still my Hero…. We all learned a lot of lessons from BH… I am a grown man but the last few days as I’ve thought of Bill I’ve been the little clumsy, fat, toe-headed kid with a bowl hair cut, hanging on his every word hoping some day I would have that same quite underling confidence he had.

Thanks for everything

           

“My heroes have always been cowboys.

                                                And they still are, it seems.”

The most AMAZING woman ever! Part 2

Thanks for al the nice words about yesterdays post..

As I said at the end of yesterdays post below I have shared the her Eulogy 

Some things may not make since today, as some comments were directly pointed to friends at the service.

From the funeral service Saturday, December 11, 2004

Thank you all so much for you calls and your kind words about my mother.Words cannot express the appreciation of my fathers and I.

My mom cherished her friendships with every one of you. She would love to be though those doors in a little bit sitting around tables sharing stories and telling jokes to whom ever she could get to listen. I am so glad that cancer never robed her of her since of humor. Just hours before she passed she was sitting on the edge of her bed smiling and joking with my father giving him a hard time.

She was always quick with a joke, most of the time they were pretty good, but she had her share of bad ones. The worst I’ll share with you. When she would tell this joke I would get so embarrassed because I just hated it, because it was…. Well, you’ll see. The joke goes 

A string walks into a bar and orders a drink.

The bartender looks at the string and says,

“I’m sorry, we don’t serve strings in here.”

A moment passes and the string says,

“Boy I could should sure use a drink down here bartender, how bout it?”

The bartender replies,

“I told you, we don’t serve strings in here! You need to leave.”

The strings walks outside, waits a little while and then wraps himself into a

Knot and untwists the top of his yarn head and then walks back into the bar,

Hops up on a stool and orders a drink……

The bartender says, “Hey aren’t you that string? I’m telling you for the last         
time we don’t serve strings in here!”

The string looks at him as says.

“Shows what you know, I am not a string.”

The bartender is now very angry and responds.

“YES, YES YOU ARE, GET OUT!”

The string pauses and replies.

“Sorry, I’m afraid not.”  (Frayed knot)  

I can remember that joke being told many times at our kitchen table to one of my friends with me begging and pleading for her not to tell it.

Every few days she would share another little gem like that with my dad and I at the kitchen table. Often times I think she would get a bigger kick out of telling the joke than dad and I ever got out of hearing it…. Some times she would get so tickled thinking about telling the joke… she couldn’t actually tell the joke.

Mom could really laugh and she did it well. In fact next to being my mother, that’s what she may have done best. Bud Ratliff, you could get her tickled quicker that anybody, Her and that toothy grin, mom could smile with just her eyes. You can see that in her photos. …… God,  we loved her so much….. I am sure so, did many of you.

She was often the peacekeeper in the house; A father and a son will have rather loud disagreements from time to time… And for my father and I that would happen, far to often. She would tell me “We gotta get along, were all each others got…..”

Dad once told me “The two greatest women EVER were his mother and my mother….” I know someday I’ll have a son, and I will tell him the same thing.

That brings me to all the emotions I have right now, sadness, anger, love, peace, confusion, and others I don’t even know how to explain.

I am sad that she will never know my unborn children, from a yet to be found wife….

Those children will never know how cool their Grandma was, or to hear the stories she told, that I am so afraid I’ll forget.

I am confused as to why God would want to take her from us and why would he use cancer to do it?

Anger, Yes anger… I am angry with God for actually taking her away……..I ask a long time friend of my moms who is closer to God than I, if its ok to be mad at God?

He smiled and ask me if I think God every gets mad at us? Then we both smiled, he told me children will get mad at parents and parents will get mad at children. It doesn’t mean one doesn’t sill love the other! I understand its alright to be upset with god for this.. that he loves my mother, me and all of you. Thank you Archie for those few moments that have impacted me profoundly

Speaking of God and love, Brooks  (my nephew) I never remember mom ever being prouder of someone that she was of you… When you were about four years old, you, your parents and Grandma Jo were at the little church where we attended on a Sunday when I didn’t go. At the end of the service the pastor ask if any one wanted to say anything… Mom told the story that you stood right up on seat of the pew and raised your little hand. Now understand mom was petrified at what you might say….

The pastor ask what did you have to say?  You proudly proclaimed, “I love the Lord.”

The pastor was somewhat taken-back ask the congregation who was it that a child could say something that a grown man couldn’t.

I know mom must have told that story at least 50 times to anyone and everyone who would listen for at least the next six months. Breanne she loved you to and had you been born first I would have told the same story about you.

That little church on Ivy Lane holds a lot of great memories for mom and I.  One we talked about not long ago was when we forgot to adjust our clocks and showed up a hour early….. No one was there so we just sat on the steps and talked, now neither one of us could remember anything we talked about but you can bet it was something silly and that we had fun.

Marie, “sweet little Marie” as my mother would say, she loved you and Jim so much. It means so much to have you and Danny here today. She always said that no one could preach like her Pop’s but that jim came real close. Even though she had lost her Pops long before that, Jim made her feel close to him.

Mom I know you’re here with us right now in this room, not the casket, but in the heart of every person in this room. You’re the person holding me up so I don’t fall or falter just like you have for thirty plus years. I know you loved me and you’re proud of me and if I did not say it enough on Jordan Rd. You’re the best mommy I could have ever ask for.

Thank you for putting off the inevitable until dad and I could both be there. I’ve told close friends that you looked scared at the end. I now know it wasn’t a scared look….. you were in Awe….. I choose to believe that while your body was still here on earth your soul was already in heaven. That you were starring in awe of its beauty and amazement.

I know you’ve already found you mom and pop and tell Babe (her brother) not to worry I'll try not to lose his baby spoon. I know you’ll find Grandma and Grandpa Mears and tell them how proud they can be of their son for taking such good care of you. Fred Fisher wanted me to tell you to find his granddaughter Alisha, he’s sure the to of you will be big friends.

Mom, you always told me I could be anything I wanted to be.

You always told me that people could take away everything you every have but the one thing no one can ever take away from you is your MIND. While I have so many material things to remember you by I will cherish so many memories much, much more.

To all of you who have came, called, and sent sympathy cards. It means so much that you care but don’t for one second feel sorry for us, dad and I were blessed to have her this long and to tell her how much we loved her. SOME of you may not be that lucky. Please don’t wait, don’t take for granted that person,  that you will have another chance to tell them you love them.

There is someone here that has someone they are putting off telling “I love you” to, and telling them how much they mean to you. Please don’t wait another day, call them when the service is over, go and see them tonight. Everyone asks us what he or she can do for us or if we need anything. All I ask is this….. Tell that person how much they mean to you.

It seems a shame to have to have a death to bring everyone together, that we never have time or make time for what is important. Until its to late.

Thank you all for loving my mother, if I can love someone half as much as she loved us I think I will have a pretty full life. 

Thank you for reading 

The most AMAZING woman ever! Part 1

My mother and father
Picture taken sometime in the sixties.

This year I had four friends say good-bye to a parent and it is devastating how crushing that can be in ones life. To have your biggest fan, your hero, the person who brought you life, and gave you guidance.

Gone…..

This week marks seven years since we said good-bye to the most AMAZING woman ever, my mother.  Josie Mears

Born:

September 3^rd 1935 in a holler on the banks along the river in the New Caney Valley, Tazewell, Tennessee.

Died:

December 7^th 2004 in the arms of her son and husband, in her home of 35 years on Jordan Rd. West Alexandria, Ohio.

Her folks were sharecroppers and her father was the communities’ preacher  (Southern Baptist). She was the youngest of nine children and the only one to graduate high school.  She grew up in what could at best be called a shack. She told a story that one of her chores as a kid was she had to “sweep the yard” that’s correct sweep, not mow the yard but sweep it. She said with her eight brothers and sisters, along with all the other kids from up and down the valley playing in the yard, add to that all the neighbors who called on her father for help that grass never had a chance to grow.

She was a beautiful person with a great soul and cancer took her from us to soon.

At her funeral it was literally standing room only, the folks at the funeral home said it was at that time undoubtedly the largest attended funeral they had hosted

Family Pastor Dan Mullins spoke of how God sent his only son to die for our sins and that for those of us who accepted him as our savior we would have everlasting life in heaven and would see her again….. Me, I gave her eulogy.

I knew no one could eulogize my mother, but me. The night before the service I sat down at a computer and typed out what I wanted to say…. Knowing that I wanted wrote down exactly what I wanted to say so in the moment I would not forget something important, or, if grief over-took me I could ask the pastor to step in and read what I wanted said.

As I sat at the computer that night, it was the oddest experience; it was like I was having a outer-body experience like I was just floating above myself watching my body strike the keys on computer, I was not conscious of what I was doing and after the funeral I could not remember writing it.  Now as I look back and re-read the words and the message I spoke that day…. I’m sure someone gave me  a lot of help.

Around this time each year I get out a binder full or sympathy cards and letters of love and support that I kept from family friends. I think that’s a little odd if I do say so, but it just seems to still be part of my grieving possess.

In this binder is a copy of her eulogy….

Tomorrow I will share it with you….

Been a long time since I rock and rolled.

Its been sooooooooooo long since I've posted... I am a bad, bad person... Well maybe not a bad person, just not a very good blogger..... 

I honestly have hundres of ideals and thoughts that I want to share with you.... And I am starting NOW to get back to writing. I will say that my real life has been demanding and the last two months is when I make 60% of my income for the year, but still wished I would have posted the last two months. 

Coming this week ...."The most AMAZING woman ever"!

Adele

Off of a friends Facebook page

BY A 15 yr. OLD SCHOOL KID who got an A+ for this.

Since the Pledge of Allegiance And The Lord's Prayer Are not allowed in most public schools anymore Because the word 'God' is mentioned..... A kid in Arizona wrote the attached NEW School prayer: 

"New Pledge of Allegiance" 

 Now I sit me down in school Where praying is against the rule

 For this great nation under God Finds mention of Him very odd. 

If scripture now the class recites, It violates the Bill of Rights. 

And anytime my head I bow becomes a Federal matter now. 

Our hair can be purple, orange or green, That's no offense; it's a freedom scene. 

The law is specific, the law is precise. Prayers spoken aloud are a serious vice. 

For praying in a public hall Might offend someone with no faith at all. 

In silence alone we must meditate, God's name is prohibited by the state. 

We're allowed to cuss and dress like freaks, And pierce our noses, tongues and cheeks. 

They've outlawed guns, but FIRST the Bible. To quote the Good Book makes me liable. 

We can elect a pregnant Senior Queen, And the 'unwed daddy,' our Senior King. 

It's 'inappropriate' to teach right from wrong, We're taught that such 'judgments' do not belong. 

We can get our condoms and birth controls, Study witchcraft, vampires and totem poles. 

But the Ten Commandments are not allowed, No word of God must reach this crowd. 

It's scary here I must confess, When chaos reigns the school's a mess. 

So, Lord, this silent plea I make: Should I be shot; My soul please take! 

Amen If you aren't ashamed to do this, 

Please pass this on. Jesus said, 

'If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my Father.

' Not ashamed. Pass this on. 

I did

9/11 Faith, Hope, &......... Love?..... Part III

NINE 11 …. Faith, Hope and………………LOVE?

The one lesson we learned but flat out forgot after 9/11 is Love…

Well not everyone but I sure seem to be seeing plenty who have forgot and I’ve been guiltily of it…

You’ve gleamed on your own that this series was born from the line of Alan Jackson song about the few things that god gave us….1 Cornthinins 13:13 And now these three remain: faith hope, and love, but the greatest of these is love…… THE GREATEST OF THESE IS LOVE.

We have been blessed with all kinds of love to experience, love for thy fellow man, family and romantic love, and Gods love.

I don’t know what line in Jackson’s song that gets to others and makes others break down, but I know which line gets me…  “Did you just stay home and cling tight to your family thank god you had somebody to love…”

In the six to nine months after the events of 9/11, evening news shows, Dateline, 60 Minutes and others were running programs about how much love the Big Apple and the rest of the country was experiencing.  Stories about how many couples had ran to the alter and committed to one another in marriage. Now these couples all stated in the interviews that they believed they would have eventfully got married in due time but after the events of 9/11 they were no longer willing to wait for that “somebody to love”.  The events shocked their systems to get busy living because if the events on 9/11 could happen…..anything could happen.

The applications for marriage licenses in New York State were up 3 times from what they were the year before. That and in the nine to ten months following 9/11 there was some very crowded delivery rooms across the country as 9/11 spurred a baby boom.

We can get into a lull in life, we just slip into complacency… wherever we are seems fine and that’s where we stay because change is scary, mankind in can get lazy. We have all these THINGS that make our life easy, it started with the automobile and the toaster, then the TV remote control, the microwave, the mobile phone. Life is way easier now than thirty years ago in the 1980’s and we have got lazy. These items, which make our lives easier so, we may do more living … I think with them we are actually doing less.   Are you living life to its fullest?

Its scary just how little we have to do at our actual jobs compared to the manual labor our parents had to do…and if you don’t want to have a job, well unemployment and government seems to content cover ya..

(Don’t hate me…I know certain government programs are needed and are fine when not abused, I am all about the “He ain’t heavy, he’s my brother” idea of helping your fellow man when he can’t help himself.)

After the shock to our world due to the events on 9/11 it was like the whole country woke up and got busy living.  However since that day ten years ago I think we have slumped back into that lull.

What do you think? Are you living a full life? You know there are no “Do over’s” this is it. You only get one time around. When you lay your head down tonight this day is OVER! You will never get it back, its gone 24 precious hours each made up of sixty golden minutes. What did you do today?

I am so filled with joy when I hear the stories of the folks who lost loved ones the day of 9/11 that got to say good goodbye to their loved ones by phone that day … they got the opportunity to say goodbye and say “I love you” to those special loved ones….

Who, if they drew their last breath today, would you feel remised not getting the chance to tell them you love them?

When cancer took my mother, my father and I crouched by her bed when she passed, we got to hold her in our arms and we got to tell each other we loved each other one last time… typing this tears are rolling off my cheeks and as painful as it was watching her pass and as fresh as that memory is 6 years later I just don’t know if I could have bared has she passed and I not been there and we had that opportunity to tell each other our feelings in those final moments.

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1987 as a High School freshman I was able to attend National FFA convention what a impact moment, what memories I have from that trip but the memory that stays burnt in my mind is the three students from Melba, Idaho who never made it home from convention, who perished when the plane they were on, Continental flight 1713 crashed outside of Denver Co.

The memorial service had a fellow FFA member recited a poem that has stayed with me all those years, while I do not know if I remember it exactly right, I think its close enough to get help deliver my point

Please tell me why

Why do we wait?

Why do hesitate to be real

With those who Love

Until it’s to late

Please tell me why

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Why do we wait?

I sure have been guilty of wasting more than one beautiful day being lazy and bumming … I am penning this blog as much for my own growth and to remind me of these things more that any one else’s.

I have had people my life where are relationships have dissolved because of not saying what we feel. I would like to repair relationships in my life and family.  So don’t think I am pointing any fingers….

“Did you hold tight to your family?” This next part may hit just a little to close to some friends who read this but…. This summer I have seen several friends really face challenges and struggles with marriages and family lives. My parents were split up from the time I was eleven till after I was home from college. A very odd and rare situation that someday I may open up about on this blog, but for now understand my childhood was ….well…dysfunctional. Which, this is why it really upsets me to hear of families divorcing or talking of divorce. In every instance it was for one reason, lack of communication.

Because they quit communicating with a spouse and as humans we are wired to and have a need for connection with other people. The husband or wife starts conversations with a member of the oppose sex outside the marriage and then start thinking …Oh this person “GETS ME”…. Why doesn’t my spouse “GET ME” anymore?  Do I still love this person? Did I ever love this person? Is this the person and how I want spend the rest of my life? Am I happy? Is there something better out there for me? ……. is the grass greener over there?….. I have never met a married couple of any length of time that has not told me that MARRIGE IS WORK… and a lot of work… and some of those make it look so very easy.

One married couple I have idolized for years split this summer after 37 years of marriage. The kids are grown and are great people doing positive things in the world. The couple has worked together building a family farming operation since day one of the marriage. All I can ask is why?  My dream was to live the life they exhibited, a man and woman working side-by-side building something for their family. Bringing up a family in rural American doing what they loved.

Maybe my thought that the 9/11 lesson of love has been forgotten might be a little off base but it sure seems to me that folks are a little quicker to quit and walk away than they were that fall of 2001.  

It seems to me for the bad stuff that happened on 9/11 it did reminded us just how very precious life is and should not to take it for granted…

I wished more folks would remember this…

Thank You for visiting

Next Blog …. Fair Oaks Dairy or Post-it-Note Prayers..

9/11 Faith…….Hope and Love….Part II

Cross displayed during a 9/11 Memorial Church Service at Ginghamsburg Church 9/11/2011 

9/11 Faith…….Hope and Love….Part II

Recent Headlines read:

“New York mayor Michael Bloomberg has banned all clergy and all prayer from the upcoming 9/11 memorial service planned to commemorate the tragic events of that day.“

AND….

“American Atheists have filed a lawsuit against the World Trade Center Memorial 9/11 Cross”

OK this just blows my mind

Keep in mind what I am about to say and my view comes from someone whom for the last 17 years at best can be called a shirttail Christian… the phrase backsliding Baptist was one I used describe my state of faith more than once over the years.

However with that said I think most Americans are more like me than not… I think there are a lot of us as who call ourselves Christians…who do believe but may not follow God as would should … we keep God on shelf over to the side of our lives …. Just in arms reach…. And boy we aren’t scared to grab it and open it up when we need help… when we adapt and adjust to whatever our current dilemma happened to be we close the lid and put him back on that shelf. Until we need him again …. Until a family member gets sick, or that moment just before we run the red light.

With that disclaimer stated I have to ask…. Have these folks been eating dumb-ass sandwiches while riding the short bus with the other slow kids?

9/11 has to have been the single greatest thing to unite of folks to Christ that my generation will experience. Folks who had loved ones who were lost on that day  prayed for a loved one to be found, for mercy on that persons soul, if they had perished, then they prayed for the ability to simply survive without that spouse, father, sister, or friend. The rest of us prayed for the families of those who lost loved ones… for the brave souls of the police and firefighters who were lost…for the safety of those digging though the debris looking for those who might be trapped but had survived, and for god to show us a reason WHY?

Now they say we cant pray? Do they know that 92% of America believes in GOD?

Lawmakers have said we can’t offer prayer at events remembering 9/11.  How about those pesky and foolish Atheists and the cause to remove the 9/11 Cross which simply is a beams in the shape of a cross… it also looks like it could be a lower case “t’ …  What a cause to waste time with, just cant believe this is what they have joined to rally around….. OK Atheists I don’t get… Agnostic I sort of understand … We all have Agnostic thoughts when we doubt and question our faith, but Atheists … Atheists don’t believe in Christ … When I don’t be leave in something I don’t say or care anything about it …..I say pray for the Atheists … that’ll piss them off real good.

I know most questions ask in prayer were WHY? …. Some people seemed to suggest that God was mad at us for folks living against Gods will. Others questioned that why so many people had to die. That God gave us free will and the ability to make choices, and those terrorists made the choices to do what they did…… OK I get that…free will and all…. but why didn’t God redirect those planes… or at least keep the towers from falling … who knows maybe it could have much worse had those passengers on Flight 93 not had stood up to the highjackers……

For those souls who jumped … Rabbi Shmuley Boteach asks in his article “Was God at Ground Zero” , “ Could God possibly have caught them? Could He have extended the famously outstretched arm He used in Egypt to save the Israelites and grant the jumpers a soft landing so they could safely return to their families?”

……………..WOW GOOD QUESTION…….The good Rabbi also goes on to ask “ Could God have not reached down from his heavenly thrown and plucked them from the inferno, just as he saved Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah from Nebuchadnezzar's cauldron in the Book of Daniel”

President Obama ignored the ban…sort of… He did quote scripture in his remarks Psalm 46 “God is our refuge and our strength” President Bush also mentioned our “Heavenly Father” and Mayor Giuliani read from Ecclesiastes

My mother said taking prayer out of schools was the start of this counties decline… She might have been right.

To Be Continued …….

Check back and stay tuned for the 3^rd and final part of this 9/11 series….. LOVE

Find out what may be the biggest thing we gained but have since lost from 9/11

Closing with a prayer from Father James Martin.

Loving God,
You know that I believe in you.
You know that I trust in you.
You know that I love you.
But sometimes life is so painful,
your ways impossible to understand,
and your world so confusing.
Sometimes I am overwhelmed with pain.
Sometimes I feel tempted to despair.
Sometimes I give way to hatred.
Sometimes I doubt even you.
In times of pain, give me comfort.
In times of despair, give me hope.
In times of hatred, give me love.
In times of doubt, give me trust.
And even when I feel far from you,
be close to me,
Loving God.

Rev. James Martin, S.J., is a Jesuit priest, author and culture editor of America, the national Catholic magazine

9/11 Faith, Hope, & Love ... Part 1

FAITH, HOPE, & LOVE

9/11 Part 1….I am scared of heights….

Where a person was on 9/11 seems to be the common denominator that goes in to account when we think of or talk about  9/11. My parent’s generation had the same commonality when they spoke of when President Kennedy was killed.

It starts out the same way…Oh I will never forget I was…… When, after we state our location and what we were doing, we all use the same additives and adverbs to describe how we felt seeing the images of horror that flooded our screens from the round the clock news coverage.

Disbelieve & shock, were the first initial responses everyone had. With in a few hours it turned to outrage, anger, and maybe even a little madness had crept in our hearts.

First we or at least I could not believe such a big hole in the South Tower could come  from a commuter plane, as had been reported early on. Second we could not believe that a second plane stuck the other tower as so many of us watched LIVE. The Towers then collapsed before many of us had time to process what had even happened.

~I often wonder if anyone of the first responders on site speculated that those buildings would come down. Seriously, in their wildest dreams would that have been a possibility?

I was perplexed, never being to a big city or in a building like that on just how you put a fire out on the 70^th something floor, how could you ever get a ladder truck or water to spray that high? I don’t know if many folks really had time to contemplate how to put out the fire before the buildings collapsed or was it all about getting as many people out the buildings as possible.

How bout the person who was responsible for making the call in the North Tower over the buildings intercom system not to evacuate, but to stay put that everyone would be safe…. Then minutes later have second plane come crashing though…..

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For many like myself it was surreal, like it wasn’t happening that even though you or I had set up watching T.V. till the late hours it was like when we finally could not take the images any longer, the replays of people who jumped to their death to escape the fire, heat and smoke. That when we set our heads down to the pillow to go to sleep it was as if we thought we would wake tomorrow and it all would have all been a strange dream that it would have never happened ….. That was not the case.

I can’t get past the images of those people jumping… over and over I keep asking what was the alternative if this was the better of options that were available? Anyone who knows me will clue you in… I have a fear of heights … and bridges but that story is for another time. I’ll get back on message… what were these folks thinking? Was there a hope in their mind… even a thought they might survive? Did they fall? I just know this was awful and all I can do is ask God why?  

The night of 9/11 we all stayed glued to our televisions following every word that came from the news anchors mouth, hoping with every tick of the clock they would tell you about finding another survivor. Or relieved to hear stories of because this person or that person had missed there train or cab and were late to work that day or a father and business man had changed his ticket at the last minute.

A nation stood stunned, but what was amazing to me was how many people from across the country showed up to dig for survivors… so many that the news started reporting that folks needed to stop coming, that there was no where to stay and the city was basically at a stand still. I know in my mind I pondered loading some tools in the back of my truck and making the trip. What is it about tragedy makes a person desire to help his fellow man? Why don’t we have that same desire on days without tragedy?  

We listened to the President Bush tell all of us to be reassured our country would stand resolute and those who struck this blow would be dealt with. That resolve he stated for our country made me swell with pride.

I had some reservation if our country and the Supreme Court had made the right choice to be President of the United States. While I wasn’t necessarily a huge fan of Al Gore, I thought he would have been a good president…. Ok my real thing was he showed Angus cattle as a kid…. I figured he could have been all bad…. Right? Right?

Again I digress… As President Bush spoke that night from the Oval Office I knew we had the right man behind that desk.

What one thing did the nation do?

We prayed….. We prayed…..

We as a country begged God to let us find survivors, to watch over us, to keep our family safe, and to ease our pain.

Ten years later and we have people who protest prayer at 9/11 Memorials

To be continued........